My sister

since i'm pretty sure she is the only one that reads this perhaps i should title this "you" :)

My big sister is one of the most amazing people I have ever known. She is definitely a great role model and a super-woman. She has earned her PhD at the age of 27, is a mom to a beautiful baby girl, and has a kind, Christian heart. I pick fights with her all the time because i know she won't get too upset. Very rarely have i ever seen her yell out of anger, which is very surprising for as much trouble as i caused her growing up ha ha. Her academic achievements have pushed me to do my best in school and whenever I'm feeling like giving up and not caring about school, she reminds me how great of an opportunity it is once you finish. Like everyone else in my family she's a sports fanatic. I remember standing on the rails on the front row of Hog games bouncing up and down and yelling with her and my brother. She's goofy, smart, pretty, and talented. Anytime i feel down just talking to her makes me laugh and feel better. She's the first one of my siblings i tell when i have good news.

I love my crazy sister :)

Almost there!

My Senior year is coming to an end. AP testing starts this week, then regular semester finals, senior dinner, bacculareate, senior trip, and finally graduation. My English teacher wasn't lying when she said this year would be expensive and would go by fast. I keep looking at my senior scrapbook and it seems like the beginning entries were only a couple of weeks ago and not ten or eleven months ago. Senior year has been filled with many memories including Disney World, dance camp, Chaselyn being born, the football team taking State, our Wii Christmas, the basketball girls also taking State, meeting and eventually dating Coady, and all the numerous times just hanging out goofing around with friends. I just wonder how many of my friends I'll actually keep in touch with.

I know we all say that we'll still talk and visit each other during college, but part of my reason for going to college where I'm going was to make new friends. I'm definitely not going to just drop my friends but I think its important to branch out and not just stick with the same people your whole life. There are a few people that no matter where you go or what you do you'll always be friends. College is a test of those kinds of friendships.

As my last days of high school approach I can't help but wonder if I made the most of it. Looking at my scholarship resume, I guess I could have done more community service, had a job, and made a little bit better grades. On the other hand, I had dance to keep me busy all the time, the toughest course-load of my class, was an officer in many school clubs, kept a 3.91 GPA, volunteered for my teachers and the softball team, and somehow kept a social life through all of it. There are a few moments in high school that I regret, but all of those taught me something. Sometimes I feel bad because I'm not doing anything to change the world like the kids I see on the news. Then I realize that they are on the news because they are doing something that is sadly rare.

I've just had a lot going through my head lately with the stress of finals and my graduation speech. I just felt like typing it all out where I could read it would make it all straighten out.

It's a love story.....

Senior prom 2009...Love Story

It was one of the greatest nights ever. Friends, food, dancing, reminiscing, riding around in a nice car, and getting dressed up. All some of my favorite things and I had over 12 straight hours of it. My dress was gorgeous, something out of a dream. It was styled like the Disney Princess Belle's yellow ball gown. I felt like a princess the entire night as I wore it. I even had a little girl run up to me when we were eating wanting to touch my dress. It was almost heartbreaking when her mom scooped her up real fast and scolded her. I felt like I got her in trouble.

The original plans were for my friends to meet at my house, then Coady and I would go to where his mom works, and then we'd meet up again with everyone at the the restraunt. Plans never completely go right though. My friends were running half an hour late so after Coady and I took pictures at my house we decided to just have my friends meet us at his mom's work and then we'd go to Cheddar's together. I almost freaked out when we got to Cheddar's because the wait was going to be so long, but they hurried things along and we were seated in about half an hour. The food was delicious and we got out of there in plenty of time to get downtown.

The prom itself was beautiful. The Junior class went all out and it showed. The theme was based off of Taylor Swift's song Love Story. The colors were black, silver, and a light blue. They had a punch fountain and a chocolate fountain. The dj was great and since most of us knew him he played whatever song we wanted without any questions. I danced almost every song. I never got bored.

After prom we walked outside to find that it was pouring down rain. Some of the streets to the bowling alley were completely flooded and we had to drive slow to keep from hydroplaning. Once we got to the bowling alley, we realized there was no way we were going to bowl anytime soon. Coady and a couple of my friends decided to just go back to my house and watch a movie.

It was a relief to get home safe and sound and out of the rain. We watched Another Cinderella Story to continue the princess feeling of the night. A couple more friends joined us before we headed to senior breakfast at the church hall. Basically, senior breakfast is a way for parents to get their kids in from the parties. After breakfast we headed back home and finished the movie.

Even the stressful parts of last night are already funny. I'm a little sad thats it's my last prom but I'm glad it was as perfect as it could be.

Feel the rain falling hard on my shoulders....

I've had this song stuck in my head all day!! Back and forth by Lanae Hale is my favorite song right now. It just reminds me that no matter how fast and hard the "storm" seems to be hitting me, I'll be alright. Lately, things just seem to be coming from all directions. Sometimes I want to please everybody, other times I realize that it's not possible and focus on what I want. Neither methods are great. When I try to please everyone else I end up with a lot of extra unrewarding work, and when I try to do my own thing I feel guilty and selfish. I'm trying to work to find middle ground.....

My parents, friends, and my boyfriend are amazing though. I wouldn't put up with me if I was them. I feel like I've been a stressed out mess with prom, school, and graduation coming up. Speaking of prom......

I have some pictures from my boyfriend's prom

We had a lot of fun. A ton of pictures were taken but I haven't seen them yet. The last one is my favorite and was taken in the limo on the way to eat. We were posing smiley for a cute picture and then he turned his head and gave me a hug at the last second. The girl taking the picture couldn't stop laughing.

Softball, Easter, and Baseball this weekend. I leave tomorrow afternoon to go on an overnight trip with the softball girls and get back sometime late Saturday. Then Sunday is Easter with the family at the baseball park. Should be a lot of fun and a lot of catching up to do.

Well I have to go pack for tomorrow night. 12 girls....this will be interesting ha ha.

I'm going out tonight in my red high heels.......

PROM TONIGHT! :) I've got my hair fixed and my nails done and it's only 1 in the afternoon. ha ha My boyfriend will be here in a few hours to take pictures then we're going to meet the limo and head into town. I'll be sure to put some pictures of tonight on here later.

This week has been busy with the last batch of scholarship applications being due and dance tryouts all week. I didn't get home before 6 any day this week. I loved teaching the dance girls their tryout dance though. My friends and I were saying the whole time how we wished we were trying out again. But we're not Charmers anymore.. :( I have a little over a month of school left, and considering that most of that is testing days, it's not a good time to get senioritis. I've been fighting the sickness a lot this week. I just want to goof off and not do homework. I just have to buckle down and bare with it though.

I have to finish getting ready for tonight though...maybe more updates later

Spring Break!....around the house

So while all my friends are here and there in different parts of the country, celebrating their week off, I am at home pretty much all week. Such is the punishment for getting in a wreck that costs your parents a couple thousand dollars. I've known since October that I wasn't going to get to go anywhere for Spring Break, but I guess I just never realized the full extent of that. Not only am I still here but because all my friends are gone, I can't call anyone up to go hangout. The only company I have had besides my parents is my boyfriend and a couple of his guy friends. Its fun to joke around with them but I can't wait for my girl-friends to get back ha ha.

The weather is also making this Spring Break difficult. Its warm and sunshiny for an afternoon and then rainy by that night. Its supposed to snow this weekend! The forecast is a roller coaster of precipitation and cold and warm and sunny. Today it was raining really hard but it had stopped storming so my boyfriend and I took the four-wheeler out and attempted to go mudding. We made it about ten minutes in the cold rain before we decided that it wasn't the best idea.

Though this Spring Break hasn't exactly been amazing, I am thankful for the time off of school and the extra time it gives me to write scholarship stuff. I can't believe I have less than two months until graduation. I probably won't see half my classmates again after graduation night. I'm making myself a slideshow/movie thing of my senior year. Already it's mind boggling to think about all the awesome things that happened this year. I thank God for every moment of this dream year, even for the parts that seemed more like nightmares. I have grown up a lot this year and the good times and the hard times were the cause of that.

I just hope I have grown up enough to go to college on my own in the fall. I know I won't be completely alone, but I won't be living with family anymore. Just the thought of that is weird to me. I've always seen where I'm going to college as a kind of second hometown, but is it really home if your family isn't there? I know my brother will probably still be living in a house right next to campus but it's not the same. I will be sharing a room with someone I won't even know for the first few weeks, and a bathroom with a dozen girls I don't know. I'm excited to make new friends but there is a difference between making new friends and being forced to make friends.

And what becomes of my old friends? Of my close friends, none of us are going to the same college. And what about Coady and me? I mean supposing our relationship lasts through the summer, then what? I just keep thinking what a big life change college is and it just feels like I am beginning a whole new life. But then again, it can't be that difficult to deal with. Millions of teens do it every year. The more I think the more I realize how easily things change with time. Then again, I overthink a lot.

So while this post started out as a Spring Break complaint, as always my thoughts turned to college. Next Spring Break I won't be left home, I'll be coming home for a week.

Whoa! time goes by!!!

So I thought I would get another post up here since I haven't for like two and a half weeks! I had no idea it had been that long! So much exciting things going on.....I'll try to just sum it all up in a top ten list.

1. Brandi and Chaselyn came to Arkansas for the week
2. Basketball Girls Win State Championship! Congrats Lady Tigers!
3. Baseball, Softball all the time now
4. Scholarship season wrapping up....working to meet deadlines!
5. Proms coming soon...mostly ready : )
6. Spring Break '09 starts tomorrow!
7. Dance tryouts in two weeks
8. Recieved a partial scholarship to my top school :)
9. Graduation in two months
10. Senior Pictures next weekend with Jim

So much to do, so little time to do it. I don't know what I am going to do once summer gets here. I will have to find something else to keep me busy. Surely with the All-Star games, orientation, vacation, and family time I'll stay entertained : )